Reflections of a mother

As I sit and look at my children, I can hardly believe how fast the time has gone, and how big they are getting. Amy will be starting kindergarten this fall, and just made her first "big" independent decision. She asked to get her hair cut. I know it isn't a huge thing, but it was her way of expressing who she is and her independence (Mommy had a hard time) and letting us know that she is growing up. I loved her long locks, but I must admit, that this cute short bob is adorable on her and reflects her personality-bouncy. It does make her look older though. I close my eyes and I see her as a baby, rocking her to sleep, and feeling such a profound sense of love. That was just last week (or so it feels). Then I look at Taylie, who is asking more questions and I see her mind developing along with her personality. She is trying to find her way to independence, and I can see that she'll be making correct independent decisions soon. Again I close my eyes and see her as a one-week old baby. I'm trying to adjust to having two children, and I realize that it is possible to love another child differently, but just as much as her sister. That was five days ago (it seems). Macey keeps us so busy, but when I slow down, and try to recapture the past, it isn't so hard. I see her personality shining through even as an infant. I see her smile and hear her laugh as we all play together on the floor. That was only a few days ago (you get where I'm going). Then there's Jack, he's 4 months old, nearly 17 pounds and almost 27 inches. Every day he is changing and doing something new. He adores his sisters and loves it when we (Mommy and Daddy) play with him. I remember so clearly my ultrasound with him. The emotion I felt when she said, "It's a boy." I cried. I love my girls dearly and wouldn't trade them for the world, but I always knew I would have a son. I can't put into words the completeness and joy I felt in knowing that I was going to have a SON. Not a boy, but a son. The emotion I felt was so strong, enveloping almost. I still cry when I think of it. That was yesterday. So as our days get busy with every day life, and sometimes it seems as if there's too much to do in a day, remember, that today, will soon be yesterday, and tomorrow will be today, so we must make our memories, because today, will soon be years away, but with the memories we make, it will seem like only yesterday.